I used to enjoy pooping.

[chillasboots]

Now I freak out, maybe it's cause I'm not done dealing with cdiff. I actually used to enjoy using the bathroom sometimes it even made me feel better even on my worst ibs days. I was just thinking about my life before cdiff and my horrible car accident, it wasn't perfect but I really appreciated my old life. Everytime I look in the toilet or eat I can't help but panic as to what might be there or happen, sad that one thing can dramatically change your life. I sometimes don't even trust a fart n I learned that lesson the hard way when I was at the trauma ward at UNMH when I first got cdiff and couldn't move cause of all my broken bones n surgery on my stomach. I had to use the bathroom n couldn't move or walk but I'd fart in bed sometimes n that was a huge mistake so I forced myself to get up n use the bathroom even if I sharted in my panties getting there. Lol ugh sorry for the rant but this was something I used to enjoy and miss. No more worrying and more time enjoying.

Danielle

[Lisa33]

I love your last line, Danielle - "No more worrying and more time enjoying." Given everything that you have been through, it is time to enjoy life and put this worrying behind you. I know that you are still going through a lot, but it is so important to focus on the positives. Everything that you have gone through has made you so much stronger, and some day c-diff will be in the distant past.

I wish you all the best and to better, less-worrying days ahead!
Lisa